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August 27, 2006

inadvertently

you sell your self
and sell everything that you have
and you will even lose
that which you never had:

you become a litmus test,
an object
that makes you aware of the system
that you have entered,
that surrounds you:
a corporation, a town, a village
versus
a friendship that is non-contractual, non-systematized,
unemcumbered free-choice

Soon you get to feel the rules, the glances,
soon you will see with your own eyes
what "never happens around here"

you get to measure inhumanity by its excess,
by voices louder than usual
as if the Code now rules via "unseen" transgressions
and you discover their unspoken secret operations
while your eyes are absent

you have become their obscene fantasy
which now motivates their system,
the whole place a theatre of shadows,
of same faces, repeatable faces

you have empowered their system
that obeys not the Law but their Code
turning you in a to be eviscerated fiction

you sold your self not as labour for a wage
but merely walked as a litmus test:

you've discovered a truth that cannot be told
but in a fiction

you've seen fantasy in action,
their reality an underground,
you've experienced instruments,
not reason, not thought itself

August 24, 2006

fool them

with fairy tales:
the teller and academia are always right

and when tales fool fairies
higher morals are taught

morals insinuate like jokes
so that the teller can rule

clones of adult texts

such is the role of youth,
generated as machines
to do as they are told

imagine

a father beats up his sons with utter gusto,

imagine
how lovely was his sperm
while he fathered his orgasm

you don't need

to know all birds there are that sing
to praise their song

a few will do

a few words to praise
a beauty of a man
the unemcumbered youth
within

you come

to a new place

the first ten people speak the truth

count up each's negative word
multiply by ten and then subtract nice words of decoration
and you have met the Judges of the Other


they want

rhyme
as if rhyme can improve their world
remove them from their fate

yet texts that have been woven
come to naught

coded goodness

as behavioural tool
at home of the subversives

zig-zag movements of the hiding face
during its traversal of the four corners of your room
- when your eyes are elsewhere

sincerity is part of language only, a word collection,
the mouth is foul

the intent, well, as subversives do,
thrives within a network,
a nest of likemindedness
sprouting coded goodness

Antinous vs David

if praise need be

August 23, 2006

the reborn and

the unborn are now licenced
to reshape death and the living

fantasy a form of action:
actions framed within fantasy

a belief systematized for whose happiness?

the eye sees and

engages the heart in the belief of comparative probability;
after that all seers become blind

art is not

peaceful,
only because drawing of nudes
is clothed - albeit in an invisible cloth -
woven by State laws

sports

is the making use of other people's muscles

leaders and command posts need other people's muscles

thus the brain is put to rest,
muscles know how to play the game

brain game fame shame
are a muscle-tyrant's name,
Amen's warriors

for the animal

culture is punishment

each cultural paradigm
embodies, embeds specific punishments

the animal always suffers
and what it praises
are its punishments

it survives not because it lives
but it enjoys the communality of suffering

trained to be envious
the animal remains a wild beast

August 20, 2006

trust is a matter

of discourse
discourse an embedder of trust

we boys walked for miles and miles
and talked each other into trusting each other
long convoluted sentences filled with other people's ideas

that was last century

now when and where do trusting discussions happen?
ad homina plenty even professors do them
but trusting discussions?
going on a long itineray developing an idea?

life stories?

time for life, time for the story of life,
for the drama that history knows is re-approaching once more?

("What are you talking about? is a disciplinary command! )

trust needs to be emdedded
like the long advertising letter making the sales proposition

to suck you into a marriage with an object
like honey of the flesh eating plant
that catches the insect

sweetening the laws of marriage
that is putting trust into the paragraphs of the law

the sweeter the promise the tougher the law

What a transaction for life!

August 17, 2006

you always get duped

even professors keep their line of integrity closed;
and what are words for?

even to procreate fantasy and 'good' future and fortune
people get duped to listen to words
adore them
as if they obey people

if you don't know what they learned
and studied over the last two thousand years...
how real and manipulated is your day today?

each institution has is very own discours,
what you get as a student is mere show, a front

news is consumption to feed words this way and that way
all within the paradigm of obedience

even a zoo is not free
and people go there for 'knowledge' and 'recreation:
the cage walls and fences mark the moral disaster

so how come these people there can be trusted?

always always from reality to fairy tales
and then back as if back to reality or reason?

the real stuff

so we boys took no pictures,

some insisted on memories that "will last forever"

anyway, here's a beginning of a timeline:

http://www.ruthenberg.com/timeline.html

I like to look at myself
I still like very much the boy I used to be,

unemcumbered loyalty to myself, all the way my way
can't compare me with anyone,
I'm too much intertwined with nature

nature is reliable
money can't buy you nature

so we boys knew where culture becomes parasitic
envious of nature

I stick with nature fending for beauty against culture

only beauty sings and plays....

August 08, 2006

wasn't history

for us boys always between secularism and theology;
both their narrations leading right into our lives:
the destruction surrounding us nicely explained
from the beginning of history:
the told tragedies that crowded our streets
we saw nothing but repetitions

The old Roman Wall now joined by the latest ruins;
one teacher another teacher fleeing into suicide
leaders fleeing into suicide
others hiding behind grey faces saving their skull

there's no victory, only an interregnum that last a life-time
and reversal and repetition continue as before:
there's no country that does not fail
no country without generals

even the finest marble figurines self-destruct
and we boys knew all art
artistic freedom perishes

no matter how big the art galleries
and how forgotten the artist

the anti-situation

speaks its authoritative narrative
yet no wisdom weaves into its fabric:
real life remains as isolated as ever


much is removed from thought
so all speech is loud,
what was soft and empty fills up
with agents and aggressiveness

experience itself does fight against antagonistic texts
and opportunistic agents

yet crematoria's ashes
keep filling-in the interstices emptied by official reality:

it's not death that moves the living
not smart explanations that merely move the currents of the wind

but deeds that never surrendered yet
in news' final only moment