one deer visited
on Thursday, the 12th
sat there in the straw that I spread out above the garden beds...
I went outside and it moved out towards the street -
as if gone from the garden...
it was back a few hours later:
again I went outside, it jumped up and positioned itself
staring at me
just like the people here:
position themselves and stare at you
always bereft of an audible language
and if they're are surrounded by their attuned bodies
prodding them into whisper and hysteria
thus each other reinforcing the group's self-righteousness
that in turn intensifies their staring
followed by preening,
then hysterical body contortions
all that stops already properly sexed females
in their tracks at work-'on the job'
and just like the deer suddenly turned around and jumped over the fence
'female employees' move closer together
with each other drowning in their whispers
while their faces enact the pantomime of disgust
-an acculturated faceless ritual
male and female samefaced, uniface contortion
here, 'real' language is nowhere to be found in 'reality':
semic content is not in words
but lives visibly in their behavior
and if,
content in sentences coming forward
are 'love 'of aggressive animosity
a commanding “How are YOU!”
followed yet another prodding more insisting
interrogative”How are YOU!”
followed by their eyes searching each other out
from a distance, faces get tuned
becoming faceless
surrounded by hallucinated
inculcated
whisper-attuned
repetitive idioms
and what sounds as if “real”
are nothing but fantasized 'assertions'
negative assertions
hallucinated accusations
that reinforce conforming gender-same hysteria
nothing but 'local attitudes, local politics'
all based within a peculiar kernel
and since I never attempt meeting “real” people
within their 'private discourse'
I only meet the ever fantasizing "phantom persona”
playing 'non-business'
within a 'local culture'
that is acting out
enforcing inculcated roles
in a 'business environment,'
turned abusive medium
as if attached to 'superior' rights...
while I,
“this guy”
is practicing just another 'shopping adventure'