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August 22, 2009

if life is a theme

then improvise
on a theme of life

all that's impressed on a body
by a body of language
delivered via usurping institutions

long before your body language
wiggles in opposition
wanting to go
this way
that way

against all those
when your body shows more to others
than language can see, can give you,

you're fending
against all others minus one


your body succumbs disappears
under force of language-
yet
before that
both were fiercely separate:
lust never lusting for language

but then
themes begin to overlap
like reused sackcloth
from darkest moral quarters

from where the quasi dead
still command
not only the still too liveliest

yet the near dead seize the body
by its word,
freeze it
within raging unreason

and all by order
of a theme:
an authoritative text
commanding


progress

the sum of series of defeat,
multiple collapses
that grow out of advertised victories
words and texts and more texts willing


the part of the whole

was that day as a boy
someone took me for a ride
through the Brandenburg Gate
sitting there among the ruins of Berlin


it took sixty years
until that whole area got
liberated, renovated


----

what was once Protestant
turned now Catholic
and someone recently wrote
that the Cold War
brought Europe's Civil Wars
to an end...


as if the Vatican
now too is pacified

as if democracy too
will now grow into more greeneries
into more bush

as if foreign lands
will be free
free from foreign laws

as if beliefs evaporate
keep evaporating
become wordless


i met so many adults

while hanging on to my boyhood

that I always saw life as a stage
filled with actors playing
the role of a collective adult

the complicit role of men
the conforming role of women

the system played them,
whereas as a boy
you at least had yourself
not wanting "to be" a system

a sort of immunity against culture
that catalog dispensing cultural enforcers

those who hailed pope and dictatorship
yet lamented the loss of their very own sons,
productions of state supervised pro-creators

to become an adult was nothing but a future
to be filled with a tradition of false words

as if words narrate themselves into some prosperity
of heaven then hell
or the ubiquitous cry for no more war

adults become functionaries
their words expand into titles,
medals, bureaucracies

see all that
in-between the storms of ideology
and absurd hurrahs
when youth
gets used
dissolved
in war


one word, the next word

in-between
and all around
you'll see
a body moving,
yet it's an acting
a re-acting...

from nothing but a sound
like a whistle that delivers attention

a lifelong training yet to come
to unborn generations


by code or by plan

via secrets
and planned lies

Oh how critics
disarm every move and thing
as if
from within compliance
not made of impotence


only and always

one of the animals, collectively,
civilizes nature

try to talk to a brain
given to perpetual training
by and for the use of authoritarians

gendered hysterics perform
re-perform
a specific form
as if as per ordered request

a void = an acting visibility
volunteering

the subject's brain
the sexless
act collective prohibitions

not loving your brain
inadvertently extends
the Master's authority:
umbilical brain rights

August 21, 2009

while i'm studying

the Collected Works of J.S. Mill (U of Toronto Press; Liberty Fund)
and some of his father's stuff, James Mill

and Hume's Works,
and Lord Kames' Elements of Criticism,
and Earl of Shaftesbury's Characteristicks of Men, Manners, Opinions, Times

i'm, also into Davetian's Civility

and Susan Sontag's REBORN:Journals and Notebooks 1947-1963

and Judith Butler's latest: Frames of War

All of the above are independent thinkers that started thinking at home...

add to this more thinkers:
Foucault's Dits et Ecrits, 4270 pages of his writings except his books

Nietzsche's collected works,critical study edition, 9632 pages

Free life is short
too short
while democracy lasts


bought ten tender blue plums

while playing with the thought
of baking a plum strudel...

but four plums - two by two's- were so tasty looking
that I tasted one

then my taste wanted many more...


can't get enough of what my eyes like
they know that I live from taste to taste

it always gets better
the tastier it gets

words stop here
but nature just goes on and on and on

August 20, 2009

some flowers

many clovers blossom

five or six bees cavort here and there

one butterfly the other day
named him sunshine boy

followed by rain all summer
more rain

tonight cold
down to five degrees C
five degrees above freezing

the heat is on
all summer

my online heating bill
my warmth my joy

language is so young

an invention

that life itself
remains at a loss


when I taught language...

students learned more
from themselves
from my silences

than from my words
that had just passed by

why go back to

post infancy?

someone taught me to read the newspapers
before I entered school

so what I saw in city after city
destruction after destruction
tanks here tanks there

all the misery repeated itself
in the papers

and when another war started
at the other end of the world
the war pictures started too

the boy could honestly cry

Life was always more important

than language:

as boys we took long brakes
from language

away from classrooms and zoos
and churches-

for us
they were all coercive creatures
of
and for language

the forests were for us:
there we were free
beyond free

free from other people's language

August 14, 2009

after three years

on this fresh fruit diet

the kilo salt still stands there untouched,
oils and margarines and fats are gone...

the fridge is shut off for over a year now
all the gravies have joined history

summarizing:

the quality
of my body

corresponds
to the quantities

of fresh fruits
fresh fruit juices
fresh vegetables
fresh boiled potatoes
sometimes rice
beans lentils peas

all in different quantities

different every day
never repeating tomorrow
what I ate today


a slice or two of multi-grain bread
eaten with a juicy peach


an egg or sometimes two
for breakfast,
then fruit


paprika, cayenne pepper, basil ,etc

cinnamon -anti-septic, anti inflammatory-
with fresh apple juice
or rice or whatever

fresh whole milk:
I make cream cheese in the middle of the kitchen table:
let a liter or so stand in an emaille bowl on the table
four days or so, then into a fine sieve (or cheese cloth)

VOILA!
Fresh cream cheese!

August 06, 2009

one blueberry not to remain

an irrational idea...

roundly and sweetly

more blueberries
follow each other
to a mammal's mouth

as if the many
add up to an organ's ism

August 04, 2009

more and more

I remove language from me
an occupant enforced

the infant cornered within language

never met a teacher that rhymed with another teacher
congruency was always system congruency

yet systems collapse
while others speak of change

granting language sense
a rhyming chance

ergo, language collapses

yet time is there to make possible
certain times
that "produce" no sense

family policy means family policing
language outsmarts every new-born

if you listen to to no one
shut off all speaking machines
grown-ups babble

your self gets stuck
within the innards
of any language
dead language

other language
drastically reduced detached
from exchangeable people

as if the invention of the beauty
of a twenty year old
is nothing but the product
of some historical language
hidden within a Greek sculpture

go!
eat your language

say HELLO to the sculpture

eat fresh fruit


some people think

they train their dogs and cats

yet it is public opinion
that is training thinking people

experience

loves to be free from words

go at it
in any language

avoid all texts that claim
to 'understand' experience

reduce your very own experience

to letters of the alphabet

make it into words
compose sentences
add commas
take a break at full-stops

as if experience trained you

you draw limits to your experience
add more words

as if
beyond words
another system rules
demanding unreachable experience

---
whosoever rules
institutionalizes experiences
converts you
makes usable
via words

August 02, 2009

one really does not measure properly

human animal groupings,
herdings,
whisperings

love of words rising
into the night of fictions
from within the safety
of all-round lies

until a distance of miles,
thousands of miles
thousands of years
have settled,

have made a home
in your understanding

one lifetime,
and only yourself

barely enough
to see
from the middle
where you must stand

any beginnings
any rumblings of endings

fictions, lies, fantasies
working their weaponry
from within bodies
filled with language

just listen
not to television
not to radio
not to news that is written
not to cars that speed by you

watch the words that fly around you
watch how these words behave
when they are born from bodies

watch the bodies' hysterics,
programmed repetitions

where in all that
would "fit"
tomorrow's human

repeating and repeating

strings of words
yet to come